there is so much i have to say, so much i need to release.. but there is never enough time, never enough words, never enough room for me to think, speak or be. i want to write something here to try to explain what life is like when you are afraid to be yourself. the person who always smiles. the person people call when they need to feel better.
i will continue this in pieces. i wish this mac could take my thoughts while i'm off doing 100 different things just because. i wanted to shoot tonight, so i put on makeup, but i haven't really finished that. i wanted to document me in this confuzzledness tonight, i got too caught up in all the cool settings, so the camcorder is just hanging out over there with the power still on. my other camera is hanging out on the dresser waiting for a CF card. i came over here to the computer to get that card, then got distracted by wanting to share what's been on my mind- what's been fucking up my life- what has me not knowing who i am anymore.
thank god for music and creative outlets.
be back...
celiece
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an honest look at the joy and hardships of life. of being an hsp, of being in love, of fear. of being yourself.
